Bethany's Poetry

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Okay, I'm listening to Ana and starting my own thread. I haven't done much for a while and what I have done, I've been forgetting to post. I'll add the rest later but I only have two with me right now.

Until Again

I'm so very proud of you
You just don't know
I got a chance to say good-bye
Before I watch you go
It'll be tough for a little while
But soon enough I'll be okay
And I feel so very sure
You and I will meet again someday
It may not be tomorrow
Not even the day after that
But we will see each other again
That I know for a fact
I'll miss your smiling face
And your shining blue eyes
But just until "again"
This is our teary good-bye

*written a couple weeks ago after i watched Andrew get his high school diploma and give him a hug for probably the last time.

"Freedom"

The school bell rings
And students scream out
Summer is finally here
Definately, for sure, without a doubt
A time to stay up all night
And sleep until your parents get home
No reason to study for class
Or increase the size of your dome
School's out and you're free
From teachers and tests
From rules and restrictions
And from classmates you call pests
But the fun will come to an end
You'll have to head back to class
A couple months of freedom
But only if you pass

*written the same night and i believe very crappy

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Thanks, Samantha. Yeah, I didn't really like the second one either. I was just bored. And there was nothing on tv, I have nothing to read, no one to talk to and I wasn't tired so I started writing some crappy poems. LOL

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Okay, I brought a bunch of my poems with me today. I don't know how many of them I've already posted but here are the ones I don't think I have yet.

JOKING

Why do you joke the way you do?
Don't you know I want you too?
My heart breaks a little more
Knowing I can't have you for sure
Everytime I look into your eyes
My soul screams louder, it's ill-fated cries
Pushing you away and ignoring your calls
That was a mistake, I know, but everyone falls
I should have realized my mistakes before
Now it just makes me want you more
Why do you joke the way you do?
Can't you see I want you, too?


HER SAVIOR

He was her first love and her savior
He was the first one to mean everything to her
She would have given up so long ago
But he taught her what she was meant to know
He always promised he'd be by her side
All the way to the day they both died
She wanted to believe his every word
But felt he's found to fly away like a bird
He never once thought about leaving
And she was able to go on believing
The he truly meant what he said
Until the day the were both dead.


(I have to get home but I'll post the rest next time I come. It may take a few post to get them all up, because there are quite a few.)

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Accomplishment

The day I said "I love you"
I wasn't expecting to hear it back
I was just trying to sort our my life
And divide what I have from what I truly lack
I didn't mean to ruin you life
The way you ruined mine
If you had told me the truth
I'd have been just fine
Now I will never be the same
My life was turned inside out
Now I don't even smile
I just sit around and pout
I have you to thank for that
Are you proud of you accomplishment?
Now I have you to blame
As I scream your name whenever I vent!

*I don't really like this one, I was just angry and really bored.


Christmas Wish

I dream of the day
That I can fly away
So I can be with you
My love tried and true
I've been running for years
Always away from the tears
With you at my side
I will no longer hide
You bring out the best in me
You show me who I want to be
My wish finally came true
All I want for Christmas... is you


Apologies

We just sat and talked tonight
Like we've done in the past
But tonight was a bit different
You apologized for mistakes passed
We shared our own thoughts
On your mistakes and mine
I learned wht I really felt
Whenever I said "It's fine"
You said you were sorry
For not stopping me when I fell
I said I was sorry too
For not telling what I really had to tell
My biggest regret is waiting
So long to tell you why I cry
And my biggest fear is that
You'll leave without saying goodbye


Deepest Vow

He promised to be there for me
But that was a promise easily dismissed
He knew our love would never be
Even so, he will always be missed
All I want is for him to be happy
If he is happy, I will hurt alone
Even is this makes me get sappy
And it will hurt even when he is gone
As the darkness hides the tears
That are cried for his sake
And I try to run from the fears
That with his help, were kept at bay
I vow to keep my dreams alive
Because now I know I can survive


His Seventeenth Year

Jamie and Landon, when together,
were a very strange couple
until the day Landon found out
that Jamie was in trouble.
There wasn't much he could do,
and because of cancer she was dying.
He wanted her to know when he
said "I love you," he wasn't lying.
By asking her to marry him,
he made her wish come true.
They didn't have long together,
but he knew it would have to do.
With every bit of faith
that she had had before,
she went and made her
way straight to Heaven's door.
Landon vowed, in front of God
and everybody that he'd love her always.
As he looks back on that year, he knows
he will stay true to his word to the end of his days.

*About A Walk to Remember, during my AWtR phase

LAST ONE!!!!! For now anyway.


Hypnotized

I've lived all these years
Without any fears
And was hypnotized
By your many lies
Now that you've gone your way
There is nothing I need to say
I know none of it was real
I am the one who can feel
I will not waste my time
Or sit around and whine
I'll leave you memory behind
So I can soul-search to find
I'm putting you out of my life
As the saying goes, out of sight, out of mind


*That's all I have for now. Maybe I will find time and inspiration to write some more. I'm in the middle of a song right now. I have the first verse and the chorus with part of the second verse. But I can't figure out where to go from there. A friend is supposed to help me but if she waits too long, I'll post what I have on this thread to ask for help.

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This is what I have so far of the song I'm writing. It's not very good but it's better than some of the other songs I've tried to write.

Can't Wait (Voice in the Wind)

Verse 1: What's going on? How did I get here? What happened to you being there? You promised me, time and again. But you knew that we couldn't be together forever. Life isn't a fairy tale. We don't get three wishes. But we won't always fail.

Chorus: *Don't make a promise if you can't keep it. I should have known the pieces wouldn't fir.* I can't wait forever. We won't be together. Do you love me? One day, I'll see. Your lies are fading. Cause I've stopped waiting. In the end, there's no voice in the wind.

Verse 2: Looking back on what I've done. I miss the times when we had fun. Losing you was difficult. But I don't want to sound pitiful. Oh, no!

What is in * I'm thinking about taking out. And I don't know where to go after the "Oh, no!" in the second verse. Any suggestions?